I don’t know what to write.
I mean, Drotara’s in the beta. He actually has kewl Survival stuff to talk about. Me, I’ve been so busy that I haven’t even been on WoW in a month, and despite hitting the big 2-0-0-0-0, I’m debating whether I even want to play again.
I love my guildies, yeah. I enjoy the game every now and then, but I feel like I’m back where I was in February. Things changed, the new dynamic doesn’t work for me; I can’t do Friday raids, and I’m not sure whether I want to do Sunday raids anymore either.
I loved being in on it, though. I think that’s the thing I’ll miss the most. I loved being there for a part of Project X history, where we, as a group, came together and took some bad mothers down, for the first time.
And sure, I’d like to be in a progression guild. I like the challenge. I even rolled a priest, something I swore I’d never go back to, because I thought having a new toon would give me a new challenge (and I wanted one that looked like Elvis). But it felt bland. It felt empty, not exciting.
I guess my problem is that my interests change quickly. Very few things really stick with me; I like to pick and choose and check new things out. It’s funny, because I’m a very stable guy, but I like to try new things as often as I am able. So, between that and my slightly chaotic life for the last year, WoW provided some stability, something I could come back to, and yes, there was waffling (“I’m quitting! No I’m not! Yes I am! No I’m not!”)
When my work schedule meant I couldn’t get to see my friends on any consistent basis, I found new ones in the game. It was something that helped me forget about how much life was out of my control; and it made me feel like I had some course for my real life, which I didn’t. This was a fault of mine; I just didn’t want to face reality.
So, now I have. I’m going back to school for a Master’s, and moving on with my life. And while there are a many great challenges in the game, I’m going with the ones in real life.
I thought about writing a nice little story for you all from Track’s point of view. And I did, actually. But I’m keeping that for myself. It’s closure.
Take care, and have a nice life, virtual or otherwise.